Revamp

Posted by Michelle under Life, Personal, Sitely

♪♫ — Prayer of the Refugee by Rise Against

I’m working on revamping the texture pages on OD and after I get that done I’ll be working on revamping the brushes page as well. I’ve also removed my portfolio from OD, I’ll only be providing resources from now on. However, I will upload some of my artwork and creations on my deviantART page when I have time (http://cloaks.deviantart.com). I have a lot of paintings and ceramic projects to take photos of! And one of my paintings even won third place in an art exhibition! I was actually very surprised because the painting wasn’t even fully complete (my teacher had entered the painting without me even knowing it).

I’ve figured a lot of things out for myself in the days I haven’t posted. I’m contacting college/university admission representatives and slowing my thought process down a little. I keep thinking way too far ahead of myself that I get caught in a huge axiety/stress mode. I just worry too much, I need to stop thinking so negatively.

Yesterday was my 2 month anniversary with Chris ♥. I can’t believe I’ve met someone so amazing.

EDIT: 04/17/08 @ 8:27 PM — Slowly rebuilding the Original Textures page tonight :]

EDIT: 04/17/08 @ 9:54 PM — The Original Textures page is complete, I removed around 20 unwanted textures and added sets from my devART account. I will start working on the Paper Textures page tomorrow.

Yeah, I’m here

Posted by Michelle under Life, Other, Rant

♪♫ — Open Water by Thrice

So yeah, I disappeared for awhile again and I met the most amazing person ever. His name is Chris and we have been in a relationship for almost 2 months now (he asked me out a few minutes past midnight on Valentine’s Day, so technically the 15th is our anniversary). He makes everyday worth it for me, and even though my home life is complete shit (as most of my friends already know) it barely even matters anymore, when I get to talk to him, it drowns all the bad things. He has given me so much hope for the future, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. The unfortunate thing is, he lives nearly 500 miles away. It won’t stop us.

I’ve also been trying to pick up the fallen pieces of my life. I have messed up so bad with my High School GPA and it’s too late for me to bring it up. Junior year is supposedly the hardest and most important year of HS, and mine is fucked up. Because of my hospital incident and my screwed up immune system, my grades have taken a huge dump. There is only one quarter of my Junior year left, and that’s not enough time to bring everything up. Right now I’m scared to death that I won’t be ready or even make it into a college/university. I haven’t even scheduled an ACT or SAT yet… I feel so overwhelmed and I don’t know where to start. I don’t want to be a bum, I don’t want to be homeless, and I definitely don’t want to end up working at a fast food franchise or a Wal-Mart for my whole life. Everyone at my school already has colleges and/or universities picked out and have or are going to take the ACT/SAT and I’m just sitting here with no clue. I keep thinking I know what I want, but in reality… I don’t have any idea… I’m probably going to have to work for a few years to earn my tuition before I can even go to school, because even if my dad claims he will help, he really won’t. I’m on my own. I can’t even apply for financial aid without him, and because he makes good money, I won’t get that much help (he spends ALL of our money on alcohol/cigs so it’s like he doesn’t even have a job).

Anyone have advice? I really feel like I need some counseling on this… I guess I should probably confront my school counselor, but I don’t have much time in my school day to do that…

I also have a job now, I’ll be working at an amusement park called Kings Island. So finally I’ll be able to make my own money, and save it for something. I’m probably gonna pop my first paycheck on a cell phone (I’m probably the only 17 year old without one), then save the rest towards moving my ass out of this place. Chris might get an apartment after this summer (he lives in a dorm right now) and so if this relationship sticks through it, which I’m confident it will, I might be his roommate. The atmosphere I live in right now is deadly, so moving out would relieve nearly all the stress in my life and help me start a fresh new life — which I desperately need. I’m ready to move on.

P.S. I’m working on putting all of my deviantART textures on here.

deviantART!

Posted by Michelle under Life, Other, Rant, Textures

Hi :] I’m pretty much done with my revamp, there isn’t really anything else I want to change/fix at the moment . However, I recently created (well actually I made it a long ass time ago but haven’t used it) a deviantART account! My link is: http://cloaks.deviantart.com/ so if you also have one, drop by sometime ^^ It’s all going to be textures, perhaps maybe I’ll add some other things too — but at a later time.

A lot of crap has been going on in my life lately, but I can’t really say much — it would take up too much time to explain and a lot of it I’m not comfortable with saying to the public at the moment. So… see you guys around :]

Edit @ 2/29/08: Yeah back to the first theme, I still love this one so much haha. There are tons of textures that I’ve added to my DA account that are not available for download here (yet) so check them out. I’ll be adding them sometime soon.